Healing

Cooling off for winter 🌬 Taking time and space to heal from a fiery flare.

I’m writing this from my hospital bed. The third time being admitted in two months with an autoimmune disease called Ulcerative Colitis. A diagnoses I have had for ten years. A diagnoses that is calling for my attention more now than ever.

I am as pale as the snow is white— taking on a far different embodiment than my more suitable ocean girl solar woman feel but ayy that’s ok. This is a softer, cooler, more inward experience... a changing of seasons within myself that I wouldn’t have chosen on my own will but nature has a way of choosing things for us... and we must always follow her direction. So I’m tossing out resistance and strapping into that guidance. Ready to ride that wave in whatever form it comes.

I want my loved ones and current/future clients to know that I’m taking time off from work/output to heal my body, heart and spirit so that I can show up in the world the way I know I’m designed to and excited to unfold to.

Within these next few months I will be engaging in deep healing therapies (EMDR and somatic healing) to address the trauma that triggers an autoimmune response. I will be accepting biologic infusions (remicade and other IBD western medications) to soothe inflammation and keep me stabilized. And I am committing to active rest, relentless nature time, spiritual contact and asking for help/leaning into community for connection and social health. I hope some of these inspire excitement in you, healing can start in any one of these places.

This illness has brought me to my knees and it’s time that I finally enter a period of deep restoration and self devotion in order to heal. I have a story to share and I want to share it with you, but more will be revealed after I learn these lessons so please hold tight. They’re thundering in now.

For anyone dealing with chronic illness, there is hope for you. Do the research, listen to your body and above all trust yourself and your intuition. If the doctor’s don’t feel right keep looking. If the food doesn’t feel right keep trying. Be patient, stay aligned and remember that your body is your partner.

I ❤️ you keep going