How to Transform Pain into Fulfillment
I spent many years of my life trying to “figure it out”. As a teenager, I was always trying to find my place in the world. In college, I was trying to find direction. Post-grad, I was sifting around through all of my interests waiting to feel the spark of “THATS IT!”.
The pain of not knowing who I was or what I wanted to do was crippling. I used to lie to sound like my jobs were more interesting or trail off self-consciously when people asked me, “what are you up to these days?” I didn't think who I was on my own without all that stuff wasn't enough. So I just stayed small and stayed quiet.
The pain of not pursuing my true interests only got worse. I ignored what I wanted and who I really was for a long time and it made me sick. At first spiritually, then emotionally, then physically.
I was choosing cities and jobs trying to find something interesting outside of myself to identify with while completely ignoring what I really wanted on the inside – to help people feel free. I felt aimless, useless, boring and unintelligent, using alcohol and drugs to numb out the feelings of “I don't know”. There must be something wrong with me if I'm not passionate about anything yet.
What I didn't realize was that I first had to become free myself. I had to get honest about what was really holding me back from being fully in my power – which for me was addiction, self-doubt & mindset around my chronic illness.
I started chipping away at these as time went on, but nothing really changed until I took a massive leap of faith and let go through committed action & trust.
I decided to intentionally sit in the uncertainty of my path while I took an oath of dedicated self-discovery. For years I worked on this “independent study"-- getting curious about what I cared about, how I wanted to spend my time, how to be of service so I could get out of my own way and what I really loved to do that came naturally to me.
Eventually, the sparks starting rolling in. Coaching found me. Then the big vision for my life. Then the belief that I could actually HAVE that dream life. And all the super powers that have been sitting inside began to show themselves and wanted to be seen. Through this journey, I worked with a coach, a healer, a therapist and inserted myself into the middle of communities that I knew I could lean into for support.
Slowly it started to make sense. I learned that the unsure time in my life was really my greatest teacher. I now own and accept all my myself (most of the time) and feel confident in what I am capable of. I found my path of being in service to those looking for their's. I activated my own self love. I am able to love others.
If you feel like your dreams are unattainable because you're either not convinced you can do it or you're waiting to be better, smarter, stronger or more experienced – you'll be waiting a long time.
Stop waiting to be ready. Come messy. Come confused. Come uncertain. That's why I'm here for.
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